Also, just to show you what I've been doing between the 45 or so daily minutes where we learn something and we aren't waiting for the system to start working again, I will show you.
PS: I hate it when you've got a book you know nothing about and buy and read and like and then it ends unsatisfactorily because it's the first part of an as-yet-unwritten quadrilogy. Fuck.
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Call me a whiner, but I'd agree. That sorta thing is what I was putting up with. The last full-time job I had was a pushover, but the travel from Macquarie Park back to my place left me drained somehow, so I'd just sleep/do nothing much at home and...work. And that was it.
Then I quit. Probably won't work full-time ever again. I want some life for ME, please, universe.
Additionally, those doodlin's are awesome. Especially the full-page ones. HORY CRAP, etc.
I'm putting one on my desktop somehow.
Some of what you feel is adjustment anxiety. It arises out of a change of routine and will lessen again as the things that have changed become routine again. You know that this will happen.
You did have more 'me' time previously (in a job you hated most of the time surrounded by a lot of people you didn't respect much and only very few that you did) but you actually only used it to watch more TV and play more Playstation.
There are times that stretch us, in which we learn more, including, yes, sometimes when to walk away when things really just aren't right. But freedom is about options and options don't come from 'more of the same'.
The hardest thing in order to have the feeling of living a 'good life' is to get the balance right between time to dream and time to do. Both are necessary.
But then, I came from a farming family originally and I learned eary to understood a cost/benefit analysis better than any MBA can teach it. You don't plant, you don't bend your back and harvest, you don't eat.
Your own life is an investment: you have to put something into it. Into your mind, and it doesn't hurt to accumulate a little bit materially (not the most critical part in my opinion, but a little is good), if you want choices, and comforts. The balance doesn't always happen all at the once, it's something that occurs over longer stretches. With adjustmemts. Mostly often minor, but sometimes major.
This is normal. Everything does come with a price. If you think every price you have to pay is a sacrifice, so you just keep opting out, then maybe you need to learn to 'nromalise' a little for yourself. If you feel that something becomes an unbearable sacrifice, you give much more than you can ever take, then you make a change. But you need to learn to judge the difference for yourself.
Between price and sacrifice, between a little bit of normal change and normal anxiety, and fear and pressure and unhappiness that never leaves.
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